Black

I am addicted to black colour! Black has something that I can't explain to anyone, something misterious, something warm, something cool. I designed my blog black. I made my website balck too.

Then I checked my profile in myspace. Oh My Lord ! Many of my friends have the black skin templates. Lots of ppl (not my friends) use the black templates too. Even some of them are really hard to read. I can barely see what's in there. Do they really want to torture their friends' eyes?

After that I am not a big fan of black that much. But I still keep my blog black until someday lol.

i lost my Natalia

I just came back from Toucheng after my 3 day trip for chinese new year yesterday. I had fun in Toucheng, ate lots of good food...yummy. Went to see my little son, Aydan. He is only 3 weeks old now.....super cute.
He just drinks milk, sleeps, and cries....yeah baby.

But when I arrived howe, how surprised I was by finding out that Natalia has gone. Someone has stolen her away from my apartment.

Who the hell is the crazy nut? I will kill her!! I swear !
Wuaaaaa I am so angry..........!

Kung Hei Fat Choi

KUNG HEI FAT CHOI (cantonese)
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR
Selamat Tahun Baru Cina
Selamat Taon Baru Imlek trrrtrtrtrtrtrtrtrtrtr

it's not my big fave holiday, but i am kinda happy cos i got lots of angbao. my cousin sent me some dollars yippieeeeeeee, my tante sent me me some too areeeeeeeeehaa
Dad called to ask whether i have money to celebrate Kong Hei Fat Choi. Of course, I said that I had money lol hhehe
Mum : Selamat Imlek, hun

Bryan : I am going to the church, love ya
Gracie : I love ya

Ya Kun kaya

if you haven't been to spore or jakarta then you'd not know about Ya Kun kaya. It's a coffee shop established in 1944, pretty old. They sell kaya toast en black coffee (or with condensed milk).
Mum always makes us good kaya jam for our breakfast. i didn't really like it that much, but now i miss it so much cos it's so good......
Kaya is from Malay/Indonesian, kaya is made of coconut milk, eggs, sugar and flour, but mum likes to add some milk so it tastes better.

My mum likes to eat it in the morning with toast en black coffee (my mum is disgusting with her black coffee hee)..sorry mum for telling ya the truth.

I was starving today, cos I just got a bacon-egg sandwich for my breakfast. I didn't get anything for my lunch. Then, I walked out from my office, I saw "Ya Kun Kaya" sign just 3 metres from my office. Yippieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee run and get it!!!!

I got 2 slices of kaya-cheese toast with Horlicks. I miss Horlicks too (yeah I am old now).

If you don't know them, I got pictures.
Go and google it, damn it!

do they go to school?

I really hate stupid people, sometimes! Do they ever think? Do they really ever use their brains? or do they have ones?
They are really stupid so that they don't know how to talk to others.
My manager, William talked to me the other day. We chit-chatted about many different things, such as cultures, traditions, customs and bla bla blas.
En he came out with such a question!
W : perempuan mana yg lebih murahan, sini ato indonesienne???
masya'allah, gimana gue mao jawab, wong kenyataannya jawaban gue bakal nyakitin manager gue!! i just turned around, pretending i didn't hear his question, and talked to joe.
sorry, will, my answer is cewek sini, and it's true (100% halal, no discount).

Bryan Hartono

Suddenly i miss my bro so much.
hmm i checked paul sadowski to see what kinda person ma bro is.
They said, he is :
You were born on a Wednesday
under the astrological sign Virgo.
Your Life path number is 6.
The Life Path 6 indicates that very prominent in your nature is a strong sense of responsibility. You are idealistic and must feel useful to be happy. The main contribution you make is that of advice, service and ever present support. This is the Life Path related to leadership by example and assumption of responsibility, thus, it is your obligation to pick up the burden and always be ready to help.

The Life Path 6 is one who is compelled to function with strength and compassion, a sympathetic and kind person, generous with personal and material resources. Wisdom, balance, and understanding are the cornerstones of this Life Path. Your extraordinary wisdom and the ability to understand the problems of others is apt to commence from an early age allowing you to easily span the generation gap and assume an important role in life early on.

While the 6 may assume huge responsibilities in the community, the life revolves around the immediate home and family, for this is the most domestic of numbers. Most with Life Path 6 are the positive types who willingly carry far more than their fair share of the load and are always there when needed. You are very human and realistic about life, and you feel that the most important thing in your life is the home, family and friends.

The number 6 Life Path actually produces few negative examples, but there are some pitfalls peculiar to the path. Avoid a tendency to become overwhelmed by responsibilities and a slave to others. Also, avoid being too critical (of yourself or of others).

The misuse of this Life Path produces tendencies towards exaggeration, over-expansiveness, and self-righteousness. Imposing one's views in an interfering or meddling way must be an issue of concern. The natural burdens of this number are heavy, and on rare occasions, responsibility is abdicated by persons with this Life Path 6. This rejection of responsibility will make you feel very guilty and uneasy, and it will have very damaging effects upon your relationships with others.

I say : he is the most responsible person, loving, caring, lovely (like my Aidan?!?!?) why are you soo lovely bro ...love ya!!!

dinner with co-workers

my company is holing oops holding a dinner party tonite. chinese ppl hold a big dinner in a company once a year, they call it weiya.
i think that's pretty cool... hahha lots of food, hope it's good.
they put a lucky draw too....yippie

but after that we're gonna have a cleaning "party", which means everybody has to clean a house/company/school/anything once a year.....and have to be really clean, they call it da-sao-chu
whatever!!! dinner and cleaning party... lol = lots of laugh

MsnHeaven

you are in heaven when you go to MSN? or MSN brings you to heaven? Nope! Nope! and Nope!

It's like most of the other sites which provides lots of cool things and info. hehe
I use MsnHeaven a lot to spy my boy hehe, it's very usefull

you have to thank me when you realize how good it is lol

first day in my new apartment

Saturday, Jan 21th 2006 was my friend, Norzing's bday, en i moved to a new apartment that day. Home sweat home !!!
Thank you very much to Mars and Jessica who have helped me a lot on moving stuff. Thanx :)

We went to do something different to celebrate it. Cool, there was a party held by ICRT (the local English radio station). We had fun til our friend Nina got drunk en puked a lot.

Oh my Lord!! so sorry for not having helped you guys, cos i would get really sick to see ppl puke. Then we dropped her to my new place. She puked on my bed (agggggggggg).
Mars talked to Jess quite loud so one of my roommates got pissed and stared at him.

Could there be more problems cause to me??? Oh well, that might be my new home-welcome

the real me

They say I am :

compassion, generosity, and a very humanitarian attitude. This is the lesson that must be learned in this life. Usually this number produces an individual that is very trustworthy and honorable, and one unlikely to harbor any sort of prejudice.
Obviously, this is a rather tall order, but you are, in fact, a person that feels very deeply for individuals less fortunate than yourself, and if you are in a position to help, you certainly will. You tend to be quite sensitive, as you see the world with much feeling and compassion.

Material gains are not overly important, although the quality of some life path 9 people is such that they are materially rewarded in very significant ways. Often, the number 9 life path requires a very selfless attitude and the giving up of material possessions for the common good.
Even the very average of those with life path 9 possess extremely compassionate tendencies. The desire to help others, especially the troubled or underprivileged, is strong. You are apt to frequently find yourself being used and let down by others, as your generosity is misused and abused.

The number 9's very deep understanding of life is sometimes manifested in the artistic and literary fields. Here you may be able to express your deep emotional feelings through painting, writing, music, or other art forms. Often, however, there if a great deal of difficulty finding a suitable outlet for the 9 Life Path. The 9 is usually well suited to the helping and healing professions; the number is less inclined to the competitive business environment.
You have the ability to make friends very easily, as people are attracted to your magnetic, open personality. You have a special gift of understanding people, which if used correctly can be of great benefit to others. Your interest in people tends to make you quite social. People just naturally like you because you are so sympathetic, tolerant and broad-minded. In many ways, you are a romantic that can get lost in your loves and passions.
And what do you think about me????

my birthday

today is not my b'day, but i want to discuss about it. i got this website from dian decante.
the website is : http://www.paulsadowski.com/birthday.asp
en trenggggg! i surfed it to see my bday stuff.
it said :
You were born on a Tuesday
under the astrological sign Capricorn.
Your Life path number is 9.
Your birthstone is Blue Zircon The Mystical properties of Blue Zircon
Zircon helps one be more at peace with oneself.

Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone.
(Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)

Blue Topaz, Ruby, Lapis Lazuli

Your birth tree is
Apple Tree, the Love
Of slight build, lots of charm, appeal and attraction, pleasant aura, flirtatious, adventurous, sensitive, always in love, wants to love and be loved, faithful and tender partner, very generous, scientific talents, lives for today, a carefree philosopher with imagination.

There are 337 days till Christmas 2006!There are 350 days till Orthodox Christmas!
The moon's phase on the day you wereborn was waxing crescent.
it reminds me of my Aidan ring now, cos the stone looks the same?!?!?

what do you think?!?!?

Playboy Indonesia

that's Tiara Lestari, a playboy girl from Indonesia. yeah, playboy will arrive in Indonesia soon. Bet ya!!! Hadji Rhoma Irama, the hypocrite kyai will say "N" and "O" to it.

Well, who cares!!!

Playboy....Bravo

hypocrite

Feel disgusting and laugh at Rhoma when I read this news ( click here --->>> )

Rhoma Irama, who said to ppl with all his 'holy" shit and made ppl think he was a Hadji!

Mell's friend, Dian wrote this about him :

belakangan ini dimana-mana orang membahas tentang 3 makhluk diatas. rhoma irama dg uu pornographynya, playboy yg akan masuk indonesia and fpi dg kepremanannya.
mendengar berita tentang fpi, selalu saja membuat muak. selalu maen sikat, maen serbu, maen hantam. typical preman dan tidak melambangkan agama manapun. kadang tindakan mereka menurutku tidak masuk akal. mereka hanya berani berdiri tahun 1998, saat suharto jatuh. kemana saja kamu selama ini riziq ?? gak berani ama antek2x suharto ?
rhoma irama....si raja kawin, dg tampang dangdut banget. berkoar-koar ttg pornography. bukankah anda seorang pembohong ? salah satu ciri-ciri orang munafik ada pada rhoim. bila berkata dia berbohong. haji lho. masak bohong. pake demi Allah lagi. ingat angel lelga khan, bang haji ? demi Allah saya tidak ada apa-apa dg angel.....mungkin lebih baek bang haji membuat undang-undang tentang polygami. seperti PP 10 yg dihapuskan. (siapa sih yg ngapus? bejat bener)

yeah he is a hypocrite with many wives and thinks others are najis while he is not. Hey you, wake up cos i think you are really disgusting and so munaroh!!!!

coward aka timid coward?

my besta's friend, decante just wrote her opinion about simon cowell of the american idol judgers. i like him because he is a cruel cool hottie and one of the rich hunks hehehe.
decante doesnt think so, cos she has her own opinion, so she writes about him like this ----->>>>

but i just think it's so ridiculous cos one of the readers gave her/his comment like this
"i think you are very rasis person...u are an indonesian...not an american, even u have american pasport dont u speak like u are an american,u dont even look like or have an education like them..come on...dont be so rasis..somany times u speak about rasism..if i see u again writing about rasism..i will report u!!!1:06 AM "

well Anonymous, i don't want to be rude, but you need to polish your English then give your comment...you speak bad English, en you are dumb!!!
why? cos ppl have their own opinion about food, drink, ppl, costumes, traditions etc. if you think ppl are racists (not rasis lol), then you are stupid for being a coward.
oh by the way : that pic is for you, Anonymous hehehehe

Kinsey

this is the movie i watched today with my good friend, Mars. it's about Prof. Kinsey, from a virgin who married to a virgin then becoming a great person who brought a great thing to this society. if he hadn't done the research about sex, we might have not been living in such an open society like now. or we might not be able to watch sex and the city (my fave show).

thanx to Alfred Kinsey for all of the research and the studies also the experiments/experiences (lol)

Hey guys, we are single !

Mell and I were in front of one of the resto in Taipei, waiting for our fried rice. We had a chit-chat about the resto in front of us, about the food and some other stuff.

Then I came out with, "hey, check out out 10 o'clock, he is pretty cute for a Taiwan guy :p"

Mell : I bet he is not from here. America or Canada!
Chris : Yeah, you are 100% rite. But he is damned cute!!!
Mell : I think he wants to talk to you.
Chris : He is on the phone.

Two minutes later, he came to us and asked, "hey gals, where are you from?"
Mell was damned rite!!!! He wanted to talk to us, cos he said, "I thought you are from Japan (me), and she is from Brazil (Mell)."

Well, we got his number, by the way his name is Jon.

Bunga kita lagi mekar-mekar nih...wadow, susah nanti mao yang mane hehehe

poems, poetry & poet

Suddenly i am really good at writing poems, dunno why?!?! don't get confused, cos i used to be good lol hehehe
I've written 2 poems lately in a day, expressing my shit, there are Cintaku and Hancur Hatiku

Enjoy them!!! I'll let you know when I finish my book, love all of you

new apartment

i got a new apartment yesterday. it isnt a big one, but enough for myself en lapty :p .... there are many strange places in taipei city, like a roof sack or roof top, freaking hot.
my old landlady didnt like me cos she said that i have too many friends, hmm funny, means she doesnt have any?!?!?
but today she told me that she likes me but i have too many friends lol hahaha
she said that she still wants me to stay, oh well...........
i am moving sooon geeeeeeeeeee

Hancur hatiku

Dia yang pernah aku cintai
Dia yang pernah aku tak cintai
Dia yang pernah mencintai
Dia yang pernah disakiti

Dia datang padaku suatu hari
Dia datang membawa cinta sejati
Dia datang untuk dicintai
Tetapi ternyata....
Dia tidak sejati lagi
Hancur hatiku untuk kali ini

cinta lama bersemi kembali

Cintaku

cintaku, bukan cinta pertama
cinta lamaku, bukan cinta sekarang
cintaku terjadi di kereta, subway taipei
ku sakiti cintaku
tapi cintaku masih mencintaiku
tak pernah pudar cintanya padaku

waktu berlalu...cintaku datang lagi
tapi cintaku bukan cinta yang dulu,
cinta yang tak pernah berubah
cintaku bukanlah cinta yang lalu,
cinta yang tak pernah berpindah
cintaku t'lah menyimpan sesuatu...
jauh di lubuk hatinya...
aku yang tak pernah tahu...

another beautiful days

it has been sunny for 2 days....just so pretty, cos it's winter but i can see the sun for 2 days. i wish it's sunny til spring hehehe :p
just so excited to see the sun. yesterday i just went to the park en slept on the lawn...wuih so nice...
bisa gak yah sunny tiap ari, 364,25 hari setiap taon hehe lol (thinking too much)

Friday the 13th (Jan 2006)

most of ppl who believe in friday the 13th would think this day would bring bad luck. but to me, i think this day was my luckiest day in my life...........

started from school party for foreign students and overseas chinese students, which was held at a very chinese restaurant (pretty nice). charlie picked me with his japanese car (thx charles), in the car...i was thinking a lot about the song of James Blunt, titled You're Beautiful.....dunno how, it was just in my mind.

there were 9 kids on my table. some from malaysia, but don't speak malay (funny hahaha) oh well!!!
they threw lucky draw for us.

can you believe it that all of us won the presents from our table????? it was so crazy. in between there was a guy from argentina sang a song, en sounded familiar to me. yeah the song of James Blunt, the You're Beautiful one.....what a cool party!!

Then i went to see my besta Mell. another good luck came to me again. her friend, Joe offered me a job. yeah..i will take it.
dunno what was going on, but it was my luckiest day in my life on friday the 13th this year.
What a lucky day!! en what a lucky gal!!!

my Aidan ring

i woke up at 2 pm today, then changed my clothes to jogging ones. while i was jogging, it was really clear in my head that i would see a ring and then i would pick it. in my 6th sense, the ring was platinum with white crystal on the top. i didn't really care, cos i thought it was just stupid imagination.
i kept jogging for few laps til i was really tired.
i texted message my besta to tell her that i'd buy her dessert. then i took a shower and went to buy the dessert.

on the way to Young Kang street, i saw a mercedes benz in front of me. and there was a little shiny thing under it. i took a look closely, en oh my Lord...... it was a ring. the ring which is almost the same like in my imagination except for the crystal is blue not white.
a ring which is like Aidan gave to Carrie one.

ya Tuhan gue jadi percaya amat ama segala mukjizat Mu, aku mau percaya kepada Mu dan menjalankan perintah Mu lagi,.....tapi hanya satu permintaan ku Tuhan, izinkan daku clubbing dan dugem yah? Thank you Tuhan.........

i took it en showed it to Mell. And i name it the Aidan ring....

Travel around this world!!!!!

Mars....I love you!!!!
yeah we were at Jamaica's the cafe at somewhere in Taipei city. what can i say. we were late for the premier of Kinsey Sex movie, dumb.... we decided to grab some cheese cake and coffee at the Jamaica's. From Warner village, we took the #20 bus to Da An forest park (yeah rite forest park, nothing but only flowers en some trees), then we continued to walk along He Ping to the Jamaica's.
It was pretty cool. I got my meal, it was some kinda beef (can't really explain it to you...sorry!!). Mars (my good friend) got bbq chicken, but gotta wait for almost 30 mins (oh Lord! they still were catching the hens i guess :D ). Anyways, our dinner was tasty...mmm yummey!!!!
After the dinner, Mars came out with, "hey i read on the magazine, there were 2 gals from Oz land, 17 yrs old traveled from Oz to Europe then to USA, then walked to south america, then took a boat back to Oz land."
"wow that is sooo f***ing cool !!!! Hey, promise me that you want to do that with me when we both have some money? year 2008 ok?" i was just so excited!!!!
Mars seemed to be doubted about it, but after i forced him, he nodded his head giving the agreeing sign to me. "Are you sure with what you just said?" he asked.
"100%!!!! if we can't do that for a year, maybe 6-8 months are ok too." i told him. so all of you, in 2008 if you don't see me online or write my blog anymore..means mars en i take a trip to many places for 6-8 months, then talk to you after that. Peace en love.....(from the C in the B town) lol

Natalia

When i moved to my new apartment, i forced my besta en jess to buy me new plants as gifts (lol). on xmas eve, jess came to me with a very cute little poinsettia. "merry xmas babey, en this is your present for your new home!!" jess gave me the little poinsettia.

"Thank you babe. Very nice of you," haha of course i forced her to buy one (lol).
I was thinking for a while. What should i name her?!?! Mell came out with "Natalia".
Yeah why not? she was here on xmas eve and she is a xmas thing...so she is Natalia.

she is getting bigger now (although a little bit), en here she is when reaches "big" (the top right pic)

Aydan

One of my good friends just called me today at noon. Then I came out with, "has he born yet?"
She said yes!!!! Sherly just gave birth to a new born boy baby. And I got the honor to be his godmother and the honor to name him. Wow!!!!! I am so super happy!!!!!!

I got four names to pick : Jonathan (the son of Saul, means the gift from Lord, en I name it after my friend's name..love ya Jon), Christopher (Christ-bearer, and will be called Christof), Alexis, and Aydan (I love the name cos sounds like a lovely, cute, caring, sweet, and loving person. It is supposed to be Aidan or Aiden, the sourse is Aedon, but I prefer to spell it Aydan with 'y'). I talked to my other friend to pick it. To my surprise, he likes Aydan too (I love Aydan!!!!).

Then a while after, I picked a present for my little babey. Thinking for a while, hmm I got him a little cool remote controlled mobile. He can't play with it now, but he will after a year.

I told Sherly about the names I'd picked. She likes Aydan too!!!!!!!
So his name is Aydan now. I looked at my little Aydan at the babey's room, oh my God! He is just super cute, super sweet, super lovely.....anyways I love my Aydan at the first sight!!!

2006 updated life

to all of ya my besto, bestas en buddies....miss you all. here is my new updated shit in 2006. click here en wualalalala

Big en Aidan

If you ask me who I like better, Big or Aidan? I'd say both, kidding!!! Aidan for sure. Cute, attractive, loving, caring en bla bla bla. But if both of them come to Carrie's life, then what's gonna be?!?!? I don't know, that's why it makes me confused.

Big hadir kembali dalam hidup gue. Damn cute!!!! dia emang lebih cakep dari dulu2xnya, gue ampe terhem-hem saat gue ngeliat dia, palagi waktu dia ngajak balik wuihh hati gue berbunga-bunga kayak bunga matahari.

Lima minggu kemudian, datanglah Aidan, tapi dia lebih cocok disebut big juga karena mereka hampir sama, hanya Big yang pertama lebih mirip big di sex en the city.

Kehadiran Aidan membuat cinta lama 3 taon yang lalu bersemi lagi (kayak bunga matahari di sebelah), tapi setelah dia pergi dari Taipei, Aidan gak pernah ada kabarnya, sampe2x im di yahoo gue pun kagak/belom dibalas. Gue bukan type ce yang possesive, tapi dikit paranoiac.

Gue bingung!!!! mao putus ama Big trus balik ama Aidan gue, ato Big aja? Dari hati gue yang paling dalam gue cinta dua2xnya (Aidan lebih banyak daripada Big).......

Christy yang kebingungan (lagi!!!)

Welcome 2006

all of my dear babeys....please forgive me to post our new year pics a lil late. here they are !!!! trallalalalala enjoy them!!! some of them click here

Isabelle

my besta just gave birth to a new born babey, she is really pretty. we agree to name her Isabelle. in baby-name-meanings.com Isabelle means God's oath. Yes, she is really a God's oath.

Every single day, i just pass my besta's apartment to say hello to Isabelle. She likes to be called like...."isa'bel'le" ....a pretty born babey.

Isabelle was born on 31 December 2005, at Jian Guo flower market. Isabelle is her cute-little-light-crimson roses.

I love her too, besta

my ass

it was cold a couple weeks ago. yeah dumb ass, it's winter, sure it's cold. but i was just with my hot-pants.
i was walking down the street at warner village, a guy just came to me en said, "you have a very sexy butt!!!". of course i agree with him. so i just nodded my head agreeing with his sense of aesthetics. then he was like, "do you want me to give a shot for a cosmetic commercial photograph?".
yippieeeeeeeeeeeeee, i was like.......wuih "yes yes yes" for hundred times.

then we did the commercial shot thing, hmmm see...that is my ass on Biotherm ads.

my starbucks present

my friend just came from japan to visit me, he brought me a present from starbucks cos he knows i love starbucks, he got me a starbucks glass with an 'okinawa' sign on the glass..pretty cool.....it was my xmas-bday-new year present...hmmm not bad.

cihuy dapet hadiah neh beruntung amat!!!!!!! areeeeha..love ya pren!

my new year resolutions

my new year resolutions are:
1. won't fight with my professors for stupid reason
2. spend my drink on starbucks less hehehe or much???
3. won't get drunk then go to school (Lord, please don't be mad at me hik hik)

ah there are still some, but too personal hehehe...keep them in my diary

Happy New Year

Wish you a happy happy Happy New Year
the new year bring us new things in our new lives....new apartments, new houses, new jobs (ding!), new friends, new bf/gf (wuakakakak), or new husbands/wives (grrr)...anyways....happy happy new shitt